smell of rain is the smell of memories..

warmness of sun chase the coldness away.. but it still can't warm my soul. 

he left me behind, and let my heart frozen with longing..

tears sometimes sneaks out from my eyes without me even felt it falling..

my days goes by, from time to time, this heart still refuse to let you go..

it hurts so much..

this longing toward you hurting me so bad..

our memories... is my best medicine..

I'd promised you.. that I'll stay strong till the end. 

dear god.. let us meeting again someday on the other side.. 

till that day come.. please take care of him for me..  

this story really hurts my heart. this show that there is no boundary in love. may both of them forever in God bless

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11 Mei 2017.
-Kisah Cinta Kucing Kepada Tuannya-

10 Mei 2017, genap 2 minggu pemergian tuannya (sahabatnya). Dari seekor kucing yang gebu, manja dan menyit, kini menjadi sekurus-kurus kucing. Makan pun tak mahu, hanya duduk termenung menanti kepulangan sahabatnya yang telah kembali kerahmatullah.

9 Mei 2017, ketika aku solat maghrib bersama isteri tersayang, surah lazim aku baca ayat Qursi seperti mana sahabatnya amalkan. Dari atas katil ku tanpa bermaya dia turun ke kaki ku. Tanpa menahan sebak airmata aku menitis ketika solat. Ternyata ia amat merindui suara tuannya. Seusai solat. Aku berkata dengannya, "abang rindu atok ya, abang rindu suara atokkan. Esok cik boy bawa pergi jumpa atok kat kubur ya". Hampir dua minggu ia diam. Dengan kuasa Allah abang pun bersuara meow dua kali". Air mata aku usah cakap, bercucuran jatuh.

Pada 10 Mei semalam, kakak dan aku bawa ia ke kubur sahabatnya, iaitu ayahanda ku. Satu keajaiban dalam hidupku, ia berjalan dengan tenaga yang ada menuju sendiri ke pusara sahabatnya. Ya Allah, sungguh menakjubkan kuasa Allah, walhal bukan dia tahu tu kubur tuannya, tapi dia tahu itulah pusara sahabat baik teman semakan dan ibadah. Cinta mereka berdua amat kuat. Abang siap baring dan mencium puara sahabatnya. Lama juga dia melepaskan rindu. Nampak gembira dari air mukanya. Allahurobbi.

Tapi kuasa Allah menentukan qada dan qadar. Malam tadi 10 Mei 2017, abang kembali menghadap penciptanya. Pada hari Rabu yang sama hari sahabatnya meninggal, dan genap dua minggu tarikh arwah sahabatnya meninggal. Sambil ku melihat airmata abg meleleh membasahi alur hidungnya. Kini kucing yang berkongsi makan bersama, bersembang bersama dengan tuannya, dan menemani tuannya bersolat dan berwirid telah tiada. Mungkin ini janji mereka berdua yang Allah makburkan. Tenanglah kau disana Abang bersama atok.

Nanti kat sana 'abang cakap dengan Allah, atok jaga abang dan sayang adik adik abang. Pimpin tangan atok masuk syurga ya bang😭😭😭'.

Kucing bernama 'Abang'.
Sahabat, atok iaitu ayahandaku.
😭😭😭😭

Al Fatihah.

this is life

no matter how much warmth the daytime gives, night time will always come around.
the darkness will always come.
not every flower can get sunlight and rain..

he..left..

that day..
he walked through the tears of someone..
tides of time got carried away by the rainfall..
it was a very long rain..
he left this world without someone he loved after leaving one behind..
he was a very lonely and beautiful person..

jangan sakiti aku

aku manusia yang punya perasaan..
yang ingin di sayangi dan menyayangi.
maukah kau mencuba mengerti
akan kisah hidupku yang sebenar-benarnya..
apalah arti sebuah kata cinta
bila hanya melihat yang baiknya saja..
tolonglah aku dan jawablah aku
sanggupkah kau menerima ku seperti ini..

jangan sakiti hatiku lagi
jangan sakiti diriku lagi
membuat aku semakin terseksa dihidupku ini..

my memory

my memory
at that moment I remembered it all.
when I see those memories they seem so small.
you're far away
in a place that I can't reach
I can't wait for these words of love to be said.

I really was to blame
will I ever get to meet you again? I can't even imagine that

I still love you
and now I'll confess that to you.
I wanna love you forever
it's not too late, be with me forever.

for a long time
you're been in my heart
much time passes
and still you're far away, but I will stay alive

tears to each other..

don't look at me with sad eyes,
i can see your aching heart
if you are gonna to do this, you should've just left me.
if you just give me tears, what do i do?
i'm afraid i'll be pacing back and forth in memories,
i'm afraid you'll remain as longing if i erase you,
so i can't let you go...
you and i, we became tears to each other.
but going back in time, on that dazzling day, when we held each other like a dream.
remember us of back then..
the small window in my heart is filled with sad longing.
even in my dreams, it colors you.
there was no start so there be no end..
even if i take out the word goodbye in my heart, my heart tells me no..
the only person to wipe my tears, to hold my heart,
like the season that comes again after 12 month has passed,
you will come to me as well..
you and i we became tears to each other.
i remember us of back then....